24 Mes in ME!!

Saw from somewhere that every person has 24 personalities.

Cool, finally found an explanation for the contradictions, quarrels and dilemmas that I experience with myself. I knew it, that i have more than 1 'me' and 24 does sound convincing.Imagine we exhibit a different personality per hour a day. Then we'll get to see every one of it isn't it? Kaka, but we don't because we spend a couple of hours sleeping. Maybe I would wanna call those "unawakened personalities"(潜在性人格). And again, it doesn't seem to be the case for every personality to surface alternately per hour as we don't function as easy as 1+1=2; now it's like 12+12=1 kinda thing. Kakaka!!!
(This is damn funny, it must be by one of the crazy me! hia hia hia~~)

Hmm maybe take for instance, people with split personalities, most of us would see them as patients but perhaps it's just a matter of which character in them dominates the other 23 (including the usual 'dominant' self), when triggered. Maybe i should try to find the きっかけs that can pull off my hidden selves. yakakaka!!

I think our dominant self is always too conscious thinking that we know ourselves best. But perhaps it is this overflowing 'self-consciousness' that makes us deny sides of ourselves, sides that we don't wish to acknowledge as part of us.

So i realise people around us are important, especially family and good friends who can see your 'unusual' behavior here and there, now and then. Most essentially, they must be bothered to tell you their observations. Hmm, maybe i shouldn't be too quick in defining myself. I must learn to take in comments from people! :)

Since there's potential in every personality of me, and i've yet to unveil all of 24 types, there should be hidden potentials for me to discover.. Wheee~
If all of my 24 personalities has its own potential, i can be an all-rounder too! No wonder friends always say i'm a drama-mama person; how boring it is to play a single character throughout my whole life! Not only artistes can act different roles; my life itself is an ever-changing stage and i play varying roles accordingly. Time is never enough, especially now i've gotta shape not 1, but 24 characters. :D

Written by: THE 23rd ME (vavavava!)

The Unwanted:放开熟悉的雨。。。

HJ said this song can be thrown away. It was my first time hearing this! I thought it was not bad though.. haha.

It was meant to be a submission for an assignment targeting 梁文音but HJ didn't like the ending words and the deadline was coming to an end, so.. Felt a little bad that he didn't getta re-use his tune.

Anyway, I don't really 'throw' my works away; bad works can be served as a reference and perhaps one day, i can revive it by editing to fit any suitable tune that i come across in future. So, this shall rest in my archive...

放开熟悉的雨

看着每个雨滴 打湿我的行李

轮子滑过地 是坚定的声音

雨还不停 我没哭泣

只是在霎那间想起

那一天你对我 说要彼此珍惜

听着熟悉的雨 洒落在伤心地

站在这路口 是我们的秘密

你转过身 还不确定

这感情有没有结局

我先说 再见 没有余地

原来我还没学会该放弃

学习天放开眼泪的勇气

孤单的时候 我忍住泪 呼吸

我一直想要忘记你 偏偏

却感觉自己又力不从心

放不开一个你 还抱着坏天气

期待着我放晴

Date of completion: Mar 14 2010

また遊びの日！♪

Today was another great day of fun going to 陽子先生's house, spending a lovely afternoon chatting with her and playing with the active 瑠佳君！

On my way to her house, I really felt like “自殺”ing for the fact that i alighted at the wrong stop, yes again. I think my fate must have something against the bus services that every stop seems to be my destination or it must be that i'm too anxious to get off the bus everytime. To think i was still telling her i wouldn't err for the 2nd time. No wonder people say "look around before you speak", there must be some little devils playing tricks on my 'over-confidence'. Getting off at the right bus stop is a BIG challenge to me. There must be a medical term for my illness, some "bus rider disorder" or what.


Apart from that, it was a 6hr+ of fun after reaching her place! We made 料理　together again,散し寿司 and お蕎麦this time. Her fridge is like a little japan to me; once i opened it, all the yummy sauces and お菓子seemed to be doing 自己紹介 to me with all their japanese names. *Sparkling eyes*Then, we had a little tea session sharing some of my mama's cake. Wheee, asked my mama to bake a whole light cheese cake for sensei!

Starting to enjoy playing with 瑠佳君; he's getting cuter with hair. kakaka! I think he quite likes me coz he kept smiling everytime i try to do something silly to　博君一笑. ^.^!

Chatted with sensei alot of stuffs here and there.. And i kinda melted upon hearing her call me "秀ちゃん～”. That's the difference between poly and uni senseis. She shared her experience of being a mama etc, saying that it's good to let me know to prep me for future.

(I couldn't imagine before that she can be so motherly, can keep talking non-stop to a baby)

It's heartwarming to hear her future includes me; she wanna see my future kid (which i replied please come to my wedding before you witness that). It doesn't only apply to couples, but to anyone including friends. Talking about doing some things together in the future shows that the party treasures this relationship. So do I.

I wanna see 瑠佳君crawl, walk, start calling sensei ママand me 秀お姉ちゃん, wearing a cap and hanging a water-bottle to school and excursions etc..

I really think 'affinity' is such an amazing and wonderful thing. 「縁」はこんな素晴らしい物だ。:)

说不出的再见

I think my writing is getting commercialised.. I guess it's a good and bad thing.

Learning to suit the commoners' taste helps pushing my work to a greater audience but of course sooner or later, i would face problems in finding back my true feelings to inject in my words. But for now, I just wanna keep myself conscious of this point and train myself to be flexible in writing all types of lyrics.

I learnt that lyrics shouldn't reflect the lyricist's character; they ought to first fit the tune, and then portray an image for the singer. So, 没个性就是伸缩性高，有塑造能力！wakakaka~

I only have one thing to say, writing from a guy's perspective is very tough.

I'm exploring into one possibility,i.e, chinese lyrics do not always have to rhyme to fit. With that, it can be as flexible as Japanese & Korean lyrics and hopefully it will breakthrough further by not having to compromise on the meanings for the sake of rhyming.

说不出的再见

说不停的沉默 葬在我的胸口

说不定现在的你比我更难过

唱不完的歌还是在旋绕着

长不开的百合 怎么听还不懂

看着你哭着的笑了

我怕来不及 将双手紧握~

放不开 你的未来

说不出和你再见 怕我们再也不见

虽然你还是远远地慢慢 走了

我却还在寂寞边缘 守着

你说不出的再见 原来交给了时间

才会每天不断 说着你舍不得

留下我一个人 还无法去了解

换成是你还是我 先说出再见才能更快乐

Me and Quest!

Wheee~~ I think im seriously abit lag to be excited only now about sharing a frame with Quest members..

Ok, checked out their names already, kakaka!
This guy is seriously cute, Steve Terada!
Shir's iphone didn't work well at night so luckily there's another 'flesh-coloured' steve with us girls all thks to Joanne's camera!


Victor Kim! His height is my 理想 partner hahaha.. I think he looks better in person.. He still patted my back a few times! It must be an encouragement from Quest to me! yakakaka~ I feel the Questy groove~

I asked him for photography because my other girls were a little shy despite all the crazy pawing in crowds before that.. I didn't feel anything like them because I don't really see him as a star or what. It's like, he's a normal guy and im just asking to take a pic. ^.^!



Hikoto Konishi! Haha i've totally forgotten that i took with him as well, although his hair was like so prominent..

He was the first that Shir approached and she was at 1st a little shy; he was walking towards the coach and Shir was walking backwards as if doing some moonwalk to ask him for photograph in a mousey tone lol!

No wonder you've gotta go in a group for such funky events (so that we can take turns take photos for one another)! kakaka~

After the whole session ended, me and Zebra were asking Shir and Jo, "Eh so what are the names of the 3 guys ar?" haha.. I'm not a crazy fan you see; once they changed out of their Questcrew tee that they wore onstage, Zebra & I couldn't really recognize them individually.

But now that i've sorta checked out their names, i feel a little less 'noob'! wakakaka!!