Yesterday was the last lesson of yet another dance semester. Looking forward to the next one. :)
I shall go buy myself a big tee for dance to mark my journey. Halfway through my learning, i've decided to make this a form of 'self-appreciation'- to buy a new big tee after every semester. This not only can help to curb my shopping desire, it also acts as a motivation to keep myself going.
Haha, remember always telling my friends i DON'T wear T-shirts, then now i end up learning dance. How life always makes you slap your own mouth. LOL
Ever been asked why do I keep wearing the same few tees- "erm, not as if im dancing everyday and have the need to keep a whole closet of tees?"
Had a dance mate who buys Sexy Diamond's hip hop wear online and keep brain washing us how cool we would look in those clothes.. But seriously, i really don't agree with her thinking (not that i always agree with people) that one has to wear branded to dance well or one will dance well if she wears branded. She proved my stand pretty well for the fact that she can't dance despite all that Sexy Diamond on her; for an un-pro person to rate her under the 'can't dance' category, i really mean it. Whenever the music hits, she will kneel down on the pretense of tying shoelaces. To add on, the furthest her body can bend is to 15 degs forward? Seriously im NOT ridiculing her, but there's one point of her that i cynically admire; her courage to tell Ash that she wants to be a dance instructor. To me, i don't like to tell my aspirations unless i feel myself on the way getting to them closer.
Quite happy im continuing dance lessons as picking it up was a great step to opening myself up. ^^ When i first took up dance, i really dreaded to let others know im learning because i know people don't forgive beginners. All they wanna know is "Ok, you're learning dance", and the next moment they expect you to dance like a real performer. People always like to see activities and results in their physical forms; they play ignorant and place misgivings towards the processes.
I don't aim to be a dancer, to be frank. But to me, learning dance isn't only about steps and learning singing isn't only about singing well. There are more into the essence of learning these skills which i've yet to explore them all. Now, im beginning to be feel more at ease when letting people know im learning dance because i think im progressing, no matter how slow the rate is.
I always feel weird when people say i'm a dancer/singer just because i take up lessons. To me, "dancer"/"singer" is a professional term and I can only deserve such titles after I have reached a certain level of competency & exposure. I don't claim knowledge to what i don't know, or honours to what i don't deserve, yet.
For now, im a LEARNER in dance and singing. I know im always being hard on myself, but i know this persistence can/will/should bring me somewhere, someday.
By the way, Karen will be going US for quite a while so i shall find other classes to attend. I'll need to keep myself from being too comfortable to a person lest my reliance develops deeper. This self-awareness is good, keep it up!
カレンちゃん、教えてくれて どうも～ カカカ！
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